Don't think that just because you know, it gives you every right to play with my feelings.
I didn't choose to feel this way.
All you have to do is tell me weather or not you feel the same.
Cause right about now I'm feeling like a marionette puppet.
I'd appreciate it if you'd stop pulling my strings.
Okay. I feel the need to say that I absolutely love Loki.
Is that totally strange?
I feel kind of like I can relate to him, being the second born, and the fact that he always is the second choice, (which I can also relate to!) doesn't help with his jealousy.
(Plus his older brother is kinda an asshole... okay not even kinda. Thor is just an asshole.)
I think he was just trying to be seen for once as something good.
But he just went about it all the wrong ways.
(Oh and the fact that he finds out that he is kin to the race that he had been taught to fear and hate would NOT help for a stable mind-set.)
sometimes I really feel that there is nothing left, and that I'll never be good enough to accomplish my goals.
and with you voicing your opinions- negative opinions, no less,
I don't just feel that way. I sometimes start to believe it.
good is always supposed to win out over evil, right?
then how come all I can see is darkness?
I want something to believe in.
hope that I can be better...
hope that it doesn't all end here.
that there is something to move on for.
but right now... sitting here... I just can't see it.
Someone once asked me a question, and after a lame-o joking answer I really got to thinking.
The question was, "If you could be anyone in the world, Living or dead, real or fictional, who would you be?"
My first answer was stupid, so I'm not even going to repeat it, but I'd like to change that.
So, Dear person who asked me this;
If i could be anyone i wanted i would be me.
All clechees aside, honestly i would be me.
No I don't have an amazing boyfriend. No my hair isn't perfect.
my skin is too pale and always burns in the sun. My cat is insane, (No actually shes crazy. She's been diagnosed by the vet.) and my house isn't a mansion. half the time i don't wear make up and don't want to put in the effort of looking nice because usually, i don't feel pretty anyways so whats the point? sometimes i may eat too muck cake. But its soooo good.
I have my nose in a book too often and trust people much too easily. I rely on words, usually written to really help me get through life.
No i don't live in a fantasy world where prince charming will ride up and save me from the tower i've been locked up in my whole life.
But i live in a country that is free and doesn't have to deal with war.
I am courageous in my own ways and i have a brain inside my head, that works. I may be no Einstine, but, i'm never short a few words, or advice that my firends come to me for.
Yea, my firends my suck sometimes, but i love them anyways and they accept me and my flaws. I have a loving mom and dad and sister. My sister is actually so kick ass, it's not even funny, (Guys she's a blackbelt. What do you expect?)
my house is the safe place i've lived my whole entire life and i love it. I don't need a prince. because i have slayed many dragons and demons all my own. I have a job and I play volleyball and i am good at both. I may be a perfectionist, but i am learning, sometimes things are better left as they are.
I am happy with who I am. And that's who i want to be.
If YOU could be anyone in the world, living or dead, real or fictional, who would you be?
And are YOU happy with who YOU are?
i'm just really confused right now. Maybe its worth it maybe its not, and alls i'm getting from my friends is, "It's your desicion, Sabrina. We can't tell you what to do." Well. Screw that.
Sometimes i really wish life was easier and came with a map. It could tell you exactly what to do, when to do it, and why you're doing it. But then i guess we wouldn't have free will. That would destroy the country's morals.
"The True North Strong and Free."
Anyways. I'm digressing.
So i gues the point of what i'm trying to say here is that no matter what, i'd like to hear peoples opinions. I don't want them to tell me what to do, just what they're thinking. It would probably make my life a hell of a lot easier. But maybe not.
Who knows? I just don't know what to do...
my only problem?
I CAN'T FIND ANY GOOD SITES!!!
I feel like Samwise Gamgee, when he has to climb the secret staircase a SECOND time to save Frodo from Shelob. It's endless.
Where do i even begin?
Some writer i am.. I can't even do good research...
Others used as a double edged sword, are the ones you can die from, bleeding.
The poision, the mirth, the hate and the hurt,
are put into few syllables to hurt you.
everything was bad,
everything was faded,
nothing seemed right,
I didn't feel i was worth the fight.
but then they came back and pieced me together,
they taught me to fly,
to float like a feather.
they brought my world back into perspective.
now i am happy and warm and i am protected.
my friends stand beside me, and taught me to see,
not everyone deserves a guilty plea.
that in a person you can put your trust,
and it won't go bad, it won't ever rust.
they gave me inspiration and bright lovely colors,
and forever we shall stand together.